Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

20081026

Queer Eye for the Gay Straight

CORE-RELATE!

A few hours ago, I had the privilege of joining my D-group (discipleship group) in visiting an event organized by our church's Living Free Ministry. The event, "Taking the Straight Journey," was a retreat for people with homosexual tendencies. I was truly blessed by the good number of gay and lesbian people who went to the retreat. Whatever reason they had for joining, I just knew in my heart that such an event was a milestone for humble souls.

Let me make it clear that I am not "anti-gay" or "anti-lesbianism," but I DO NOT condone the indiscretions that bespeak of homosexuality. I think that most of you will agree with me that even if not all same-sex relationships are of the sexual kind, most of them are interlaced with sexual practices that are "beyond normal."

You might say, hey wake up, its 2008 and things have changed. Same-sex marriage (and divorce) is already a widely-exercised legal privilege in California and only God knows which states (or countries) will follow suit.

Yeah, you're right. Things have changed. Global warming is a continuing issue that's as hot as the next celebrity who's "coming out of the closet." Even "tough guys" wear pink nowadays and it's really to one's own disadvantage if he doesn't know how to think out of the box.

"Out of the box." Inasmuch as we can't put God inside a box when we pray, we also cannot think "out of the box," when it comes to obeying His commandments. Sin is a sin when it comes to God and even if He isn't a cosmic kill-joy nor legalistic, He makes it very clear that He "disciplines those he loves." (Proverbs 3:12) And God's design for sex or copulation is between a male and a female.

As I grow deeper in my faith walk, knowing more about God, His nature, His love and His promises, I learn to appreciate the Ten Commandments more. It seems much easier nowadays to consider that they aren't really so difficult to follow. Of course, I still have the tendency to sin but obeying God's commands now is more exciting and much doable for me because I know that the "rod of correction," is actually a blessing in disguise if I ever give in to sin. But, of course, I choose to avoid sin at all costs, knowing that God's discipline (although borne out of His love), is something not to be taken lightly. The penalty for sin is death and the salvation of one's soul is a free gift that doesn't come cheap because innocent Life has been shed for it.

I am honored - blessed - to see transformed people in the retreat, knowing that not only have they chosen the "road less-traveled," but they are also sharing the kind of peace and satisfaction that they received when they came to know -- and accepted -- their own sinfulness and surrendered their lives to the lordship of Jesus Christ. Sure, they may be a little more in touch with their hearts than your "average joe," or may be a little tougher than the "next-door girl," but as they have decided to "take the straight journey" of living a purposeful, Christ-centered life, they are now living their lives, not being the kind of gay that most people in this world perceive, but a human being who's gay in the Lord because he has Jesus in his heart, looking forward to a promising future that God has planned for His children.

"Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." -- Hebrews 12:9-11


Now here's a question you may want to 'research' on: "Can a person who calls himself a Christian remain homosexual?" You may be surprised to find that the answer, the Truth, has been there all along.

20080222

just one more day...

I was browsing through my phone to free up space when I chanced upon this in my inbox:

Forwarded text message>> "Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.What if you got it back? - for one more day - what will you do?"

My unsent reply>> For one more day, if I'll have another chance, another time to be with that person I love but did not seem to have, I would instead ask him to hold my hand, and be one with God in prayer. I have chosen to sin the last time we were together. I have chosen to ignore the wisdom of going to God for guidance and protection. I succumbed to my desires, knowing fully well that we may not see each other again - ever. Perhaps that was the last time. I could go on waiting forever for the call that he just won't make or the email that he just will not send. I have lost him... but I guess I never really had him in the first place. He had me... but he never showed enough if I had him in the same way he had me. God's grace, mercy and love are what will sustain me. In the fullness of time, God is out to do me good. Until then, I can only wait and work on my strengths so that I may be worthy of the person that God has prepared for me - whoever it may be - but more importantly, to be the best person that God wants me to be. Without Christ, I am NOTHING. 010208 23:21

I remember purposefully not sending the reply because I knew the recipient wouldn't understand. There is a chapter in my life that's like in 'limbo' state and I believe in my heart that pretty soon - after four long years - everything will be clear. I've chosen to publish my unsent reply as my first step to total liberty and in strengthening my testimony.

One more day to make things right...

One more day before I bid, "Adieu, Monsieur."

One more day is all I need... to fully let go, close that chapter in my life and take a firmer stance in the Right Path.

"The truth shall set you free..."

Whatever is God's will will happen.

I am a work-in-progress and the clock is ticking. My days are numbered and I know in my heart and mind that the waiting is almost over.

20080207

This made me laugh.

"I went to a bookstore and asked the saleswoman, 'Where's the self-help section?' She said if she told me, it would defeat the purpose."

20080128

Stand Up for Love, Stand Up for JESUS!

We can't just be apathetic and shrug our shoulders and "leave it all to God" when we can speak out and tell people outright, in love, point out their sin.

Yes, who are we to judge others when we, ourselves, are sinners too? But those of us who call ourselves Christians, who call ourselves "saved," who call ourselves "ready 24/7" have a mission to fulfill.

The goal, as much as possible, is for NOBODY - especially our loved ones but equally importantly our adversaries - to get left behind. If we truly LOVE them, we will stand up for JESUS and point their eyes, hearts and minds all to Him!

It all starts with thinking less of ourselves and more of what Jesus wants to do through us... so no one will get left behind. Why do we do the things we do and who do we do them for? It is my prayer, individually and collectively, that we can win souls for JESUS by the way we live our lives! CHRISTIANITY is not just a religion; it's a relationship and more to being just a relationship, it's a lifestyle. :)

Rain check, brothers and sisters. Rain check.

Stand Up For Love

[Beyonce]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such trouble times
And every child that reaches out
For someone to hold
For one moment
They become my own

And how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

Then we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand up
And hear me sing
Stand up
For love

[Kelly]
I'm inspired
And hope
For each and everyday
That's how I know that things are going to change
So how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand up
For love

[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up man!
And the rest will follow
From the forgotten
And From the Unloved

I'm gonna sing this song,

And I believe
That in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up
for life
stand up
and sing
Stand up
For love

"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in Your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:14

20071020

NU-Joy!

Initially, the band was named 'N-Joy' but Wendell, our leader, discovered that it was the name of a dance group something-something in Czechoslovakia. So he changed it to NU-Joy (which kinda reminds me of a cosmetics line). Suffice it to say, both N-Joy and NU-Joy (or even NU-Skin) embody newness. And core-relating it to the Christian's spiritual walk, I must say that it bespeaks of the joy that we gained the very first time we encountered Christ in our lives; the joy that we gained when we re-committed or re-dedicated our lives to Him; the joy that we gain everytime we serve Him wholeheartedly, knowing fully well that it is only when we let ourselves be stripped to the barest minimum that He can fully use us in whatever way He sees fit for His name to be glorified.

I have no formal training in voice nor music and there were times when I felt that perhaps it's 'premature' to be up there on stage with the band when there are other Christians in CCF who are more spiritually mature and more talented and equipped in that area of giftedness. I had my fears, I had my own "What ifs" and "I am not worthy" moments but through prayer and the encouragement of my Christian friends, it dawned on me once again that "There is no turning back." When I got hold of the shaker, the tambourine and the microphone, I knew it wasn't me anymore but the power of the Holy Spirit moving me to make a joyful noise and sing. It isn't about me nor the band but all about God and I knew - I KNOW - and I am convinced, that it is my heaven-bound duty to fulfill His call to be committed in the mission He has set before me by using the gifts He has given me.

Perhaps you might agree with me in saying, "There is no such thing as a shy Christian"? that we cultivate not self-confidence but God-confidence, knowing fully well that there is new joy to be found, waking up to a new day, each day, serving Him and walking with Him.

 "21 Yet this I call to mind
       and therefore I have hope:

 22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
       for his compassions never fail.

 23 They are new every morning;
       great is Your faithfulness." - Lamentations 3:21-23

20071014

BURN-OUT Factor? No such thing.

SELF-TALK: The soul is willing but the flesh is weak?

I've been learning lately that being passionate with what I do and setting my heart and mind into whatever it is, has enabled me to find creative ways of preparing and recharging myself.

I've learned to take 5-minute power naps. I've learned to take regular moments to pause and breathe. I've learned to minimize the time I spend in front of the computer (tough one!). I've learned to meditate on God's word. I've learned... to pray incessantly.

It's a wonder how God has been sending me people to recharge me both physically and spiritually, people whose energies are just too contagious to handle, just seeing them makes my heart smile and jump for joy. People. A bunch of cute, intelligent, curious, little people commonly known as, you've guessed it right, KIDS. They don't burn my energy out, they IGNITE my energy to the highest level! By golly, I don't know what vitamins they take or if they've been cloaked with an invisible dome of cheerfulness of some sort but I just can't stop smiling when I'm around them, with them. They could make me nervous, too, but what's good about that is, they teach me what discipline is really all about. I'm really more of a playmate and it's a challenge for me to go to disciplinarian mode sometimes but it's not much of a problem really because most of the kids are good listeners and followers. It's only Ancore! who's makulit sometimes. Hehe.

Please pray for my family, my heart's desire to be FAT (faithful, available, teachable) all the time, and my commitment to God in serving in the NXTGen Ministry, as well as in the Singles' Ministry; that He will equip me further and grant me supernatural confidence in Him to bring out the best from the gifts that He has given me -- for His glory alone.

"6For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. 7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." -- 2 Timothy 1:6-7

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