"Day 1: 07.09.04, Friday IT ALL STARTS w/ GOD
Hmm...I'm officially on my own now...here in Laoag City, Ilocos Norte. & I'm here on purpose. It came sooner than I expected but I believe, yes, God willed it this soon.
"'My' purpose. Chapter 1 says 'It's not about me, it's about God.' Living for God, according to His plan for me...
"When I asked for transfer to this place, I had in mind my sisters, my parents and ultimately myself. There's this longing to fulfill my 'obligations' to them before I do things for myself.
"But then again, I have a promise to God...that if He granted my request, I will begin my journey.
"As of now, I could just think of one purpose that God has designed for me: help my family, and send my 2 sisters not to but through college.
"So help me God.
"P.S. People tend to joke about 'forgetting' or getting over a heartbreak. Well, the greatest heartbreak I've had 'came' last Feb. and it 'ended' sooner than it's 'expected'. I don't intend to recall the details, but one thing's for sure: GOD helped me through the pain... and sent me someone to make healing a lot easier. It was “L”. I thank God for “L”. He holds a special place in my heart... I can't say that he is my savior though. 'Coz if there's anyone who perfectly fits the word, "Savior," it's Jesus Christ! Him and only Him!"
"Day 10: 07.19/20/21.04, Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday THE HEART OF WORSHIP" Surrendering everything to God. Hmmm... it's a surefire way to keep away all the worries... I'm not much too worried although I must admit I am apprehensive (yeah, a bit, worried... ok, I AM worried...) about my finances. I'm just not comfortable owing a lot of people money... and I have to pay the rent here and utilities..."Whew! I can handle this. Or rather, God would help me handle this. I just have to lift everything to Him... including Mama and Papa's health... my sisters' schooling... my love life..."I tend to be paranoid sometimes, wondering really what other people thnk of me, as if I care..."Anyway, we can't please everybody. And we just have to let God do the work in our 'relationships' or dealings with people at work and in the neighborhood. Pray, pray, pray. Trust. Have faith. Believe. Surrender. Survive... (sounds like Starstruck... I'd rather say GOD-struck)."The LORD is my Shepherd. I shall not want... Hands up to the LORD. I surrender. 00:57 07.21.04"
“With Christ at the center of my life, I am more INSPIRED to follow GOD’s WILL for me and my family, developing CHRIST IN ME, IN MY HEART, IN MY MIND, in everything that I do so that I’d RADIATE CHRIST and inspire others with the things I say and how I behave. This will not be easy but as long as I HOLD ON TO CHRIST and develop my FRIENDSHIP with Him each day, so that the Father will be delighted, I wouldn’t worry how I’d be able to communicate to my family and all single adults like me (and even teenagers) the LOVE of GOD and the POWER of FAITH in Him. God holds my right hand and walks with me each day of my life. He holds the KEY to my heart, He holds the PEN of my BOOK of LOVE LIFE and LIFE ITSELF, He stands at the HELM of my LIFE’s SHIP…YOUR WILL BE DONE, O FATHER.”